God Moments

I'm going to do something right now that I hate, which is post something rather vague. I just feel compelled to share something that happened to me today, sparing the details for the most part. I woke up this morning with what seemed to be an internal conflict...While my heart longs to feel that God is in control of all, my head tells me that I need to try and micro-manage every detail for Him. I was truly struggling with one issue in particular, to the point that I could think of nothing else...and then something almost supernatural happened. I got an email from Justin. THAT is not supernatural in itself. What IS was the content of his email. It spoke of the exact battle that I was having within myself...He had no way of knowing what was going on in my head at that moment. We are connected in a way that I have never known with any other person, but still...I literally had to catch my breath. It's not that I don't expect God to show Himself to me. I just wasn't expecting it right then and in that way. I am really trying to relinquish ALL control. I cannot be on the fence, saying that He is in control of my life--while still trying to hold on to what I can. AND...that's all I have to say about that :)

Now it's off to do the obvious spiritual choice and watch American Idol LOL. I had to flip back and forth between The Biggest Loser last night, but my top choice of last night (what I saw) was the 16 year old girl who sang Put Your Records On...

Peace, Love and Big Moments